In early March I went to a conference in Calgary, I can honestly say it changed my life. Not only did I become closer with some amazing people, I also became closer with God who is the most amazing of them all.
So each morning and afternoon there was kind of a sermon in this big hall where there was dancing and singing and preaching. The speaker for this year was named Randy and his last service was something to be thought about. I was sitting in my chair exhausted from the late nights and busy days and Randy started talking. I wasn’t really listening until he said:
“When you die and go to heaven, who are you taking with you?”
And my heart dropped.
I paid attention to the rest of the service in awe-struck silence. Nothing could console me, it was if nothing that had been currently was. Everything had changed. When there was an opportunity to pray in groups I found sentences and words and phrases flowing out of my mouth and it seemed like God had given me the right words to say. I was thinking about all the people I knew who didn’t know God and I almost wept. Why hadn’t I thought about this before? Who was I to have this tremendous gift and not to share it? Who was I to know God and kept it a secret? I remembered all the times when I pulled a Peter and played down my faith and I was so ashamed. He is so wonderful, majestic and heart-wrenchingly beautiful and He has made me into the person I am today but I hadn’t even thought about sharing His Kingdom with anyone. What had I been doing for the past fourteen years?!
Over the next few minutes I calmed down enough to think straight again. Slowly I prayed over everyone of my family who didn’t know God, then onto my friends and later onto perfect strangers who were driving by. The doubting part of me told myself that my prayers were never going to be answered; but the hopeful side of me told me that God always listens and always cares. I chose to keep hoping.
At the end of Randy’s service he told a story about his wife and her non-Christian friends. Every so often she would ask them to go to church with her and each time they refused but still she kept praying. Finally, she heard God telling her to take her friends on a missions trip. She had her doubts at first but she listened and planned a trip for herself and her friends. By the end of the trip every single one of her friends committed their lives to the Lord.
Matthew 13:32- Though it is the smallest of all seeds, yet when it grows, it is the largest of garden plants and becomes a tree, so that the birds come and perch in its branches.
1 John 3:9- No one who is born of God will continue to sin, because God’s seed remains in them; they cannot go on sinning, because they have been born of God.
God’s seeds remain in us, they may not grow right away but I promise you: they will eventually.