I recently have been very tired, and at the point where the thought of school ending soon is one of the only things keeping me smiling. It’s not that I am angry or sad, it’s because I am so weary. With finals coming up, and the pile of homework being thrown in my path, all of my life seems to be on standstill. I don’t know if I am doing something wrong, but to me this doesn’t feel like living. But what choose do I got? I need to respect teacher. I need to do my homework. I need to get good grades. But I also need a relationship with God. And with the amount of business I have in my life, it seems as though I almost have to put God on “hold”. I know it sounds terrible saying that. But I don’t know how else to put it. I have been worrying about a lot lately, and the thoughts have kinda consumed me. And I want to be able to pray about it and talk to Jesus, but I am so busy, and at the end of the day I am so weary, that I fall asleep in the middle of my prayers, and don’t even get a chance to really talk with Christ. It troubles me. God knows how desperately I want to be able to hear from him, and grow closer to him; so why couldn’t he just keep me awake for a couple more minutes, and allow me to see the beauty of his goodness before I sleep? I was angry and confused, but then I read this.
Matthew 11:28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest”
Jesus says come to him and he will give us rest. Rest sounds like the ideal thing that I need right now. And i’m certain many can agree. Sure I am busy; but God looks past that, and he finds me in my weariness and gives me rest. And that to me is so beautiful in itself.
Take this time to truly rest. Everyone deserves it.