I haven’t written in forever. I’ve been so focused on other things on my life that I have forgotten to write, forgotten to slow down and take time. Today in our Bible community, our leader (Shaun!!) just gave us time to read through John 1. I didn’t realize how much I needed it until now. I prayed for the first 5 minutes, and loved the way my prayers flowed from me. What I loved the most is the sudden warm feeling that filled me throughout my entire body. All morning, I had been freezing, (Thanks Canada!) but a sudden warmth flowed through my veins and spread through my whole being until I was warm once again.
Then, I looked down and opened my Bible. And I read. I really did. I poured myself into the pages, looking for some sign, some symbol, some verse that would reach out to me. And suddenly, my eyes were pulled from the paragraph I was reading to a different paragraph altogether. In fact, it wasn’t even in John 1. I turned the pages until I reached John 3, and read down the page until I reached verses 19-21.
19 This is the verdict: Light has come into the world, but people loved darkness instead of light because their deeds were evil. 20 Everyone who does evil hates the light, and will not come into the light for fear that their deeds will be exposed. 21 But whoever lives by the truth comes into the light, so that it may be seen plainly that what they have done has been done in the sight of God.
That was what hit me. Not a verse about how much God loves us, or about how precious we are, but a verse about us. How everything we do is showing that we are children of God. When we are hateful, and evil, and sinning, God is watching. He is like a father. He is proud when we succeed, and loving but disappointed when we fail. So we must strive like diligent children to make our Father proud.
I encourage all of you to take a little bit of time after reading this. Just some time to pray, to tell God your hopes and worries and fears and thoughts. Pray for help, pray for comfort, thank Him for life and things you are thankful for, but just pray. Keep Him updated. Every father is proud when their children admit they need help and come to them. So admit to Him where you need strength, pray for help with taking away sin, and know that He will always be there, our Father, warming us up with spiritual fervor when we fall into the cold darkness of sin and evil. Just like a dad after you are out in the snow and come back inside, freezing cold, and your hands numb. He’ll take your hands in His, and make them warm once again. Not lukewarm, and not burning. But the beautiful, perfect in between. He’ll give us His peace, as we become warm once again.
He will make us warm once again.