God knows how much I need Him, that’s no secret.
Once again we come to the end of a week of Encounter the last on of the year in fact. I look forward to Encounter week because it’s the time when we finally get real. We get real, and we get messy and it is good.
We all have different situations and we all have different goals. But the beauty of it, is that God will meet you wherever you are. God doesn’t say, “Sorry Katrina, you’re really not ready to meet with me yet”. Praise the Lord! If God expected that of us, of me, I would never get to meet Him! I’m a mess, I’m flawed and I’m selfish. I have a really low patience tolerance and I’m super grumpy in the mornings. I get mad, I get annoyed and sometimes it’s hard to set my weakness aside.
Shaun asked us a question, “What breaks your heart? What makes you clench your fists?”
We all have an answer. Something that makes us weep and drives us to make a difference. I’ve taken time to think about that question, and I’ve shaped my answer together.
I look in the mirror and I see a mess, I see a monster. I see all my flaws and all the sins I’ve committed before.
Then I see God. I see God shinning though all the darkness, I see Him right there beside me. He’s asking if I’ll let him in, if I’ll let him wipe away my sins and turn this monster into something beautiful.
We all need God. Desperately we need Him. Our sinful selfs and weak souls turn God’s creation’s into monsters. But we don’t need to stay that way. God doesn’t want us to stay that way. He wants to refine us, make us into something beautiful and work miracles through us.
But we need to let go. Yesterday during encounter, I wasn’t having the best day. My mind was swirling and I was in a bad mood with a headache. Through all the frustration, I could here God tell me, “Let go. Set your eyes on Me. Come back.”
I’ve been running myself crazy lately. Too many things on my mind that make me want to scream. I’ve been trying to run my own life by my standards. But when I came into the sanctuary, I felt this overwhelming desire to let go, and let God have full control of my life. I’m not saying it’s easy, but it’s good.
Psalm 37:4 says,
Take delight in the Lord,
and he will give you the desires of your heart.
I’ve had this Psalm in my mind for days now. It keeps coming in, nagging me and filling me up. During encounter, God kept putting this verse back in my head. Take delight in the Lord… focus on Him, set your life around Him because He loves you. And He’s gonna make sure that you’re okay. Trust in Him.