As of late, I have felt so incredibly lost and empty, feeling as though God is sitting there watching and I’m just carrying on not making a difference. It’s as though He’s sitting and watching, my prayers are gone with the wind and disappear as though the words were never said nor heard.
I told a friend about this and he told me ‘the teacher is always quiet during a test’. At first I didn’t take what he said into very much consideration and forgot about it. However, later that month, he told me the same thing again. I thought about it this time, and realized, my faith must be being tested.
I will never give up my faith, I am a deeply spiritual person and take faith very seriously. To me, everything is spiritual, so when people tease about it, I take it seriously.
Another day, I got into conversation about religion and they told me how they thought religion was fake, stupid, made up, and I asked him to leave because I take those comments very personally.
If my faith is being tested I will fight to keep it, I will go against the flow of the river of life, and I will survive. If you’re reading this I expect you to do the same. Just understand that you’re not the only one struggling and feeling as though you’re empty and lost. Keep fighting, don’t turn your back to the issue, address it instead.
The feeling of being empty is dreadful as you may know, everything you do drifts away and no purpose fills you. If you’re looking for a purpose, I’ll give you something to think about.
God loves you, the sayings getting old, but He does. He places every fiber of your very being to be perfect, He doesn’t care what you look like, and it doesn’t matter what others say about you. Follow your heart and serve others. It says in the Bible that we have a purpose of serving others and should do this, we are here to serve. This may not apply to you, but think, what do you enjoy, how can you help others with that, do you like guiding others to God or carrying out His will?
Now I hope this helped you, I know I still feel empty, but at some point God will be at your side, hand on your should, smiling at you warmly and encouraging you on.
So even though you may be lost and and empty, it won’t last forever if you walk on the right path, and try hard to come to God, take His hand that’s stretched towards you when it comes. And when you touch it, you will be filled wih unimaginable happiness and the veil will lift, so never lose hope. Everything will be okay, just wait patiently, He will never abandon you.