Lately, a lot of things have been on my mind. I haven’t posted in so long but there is so much to talk about. Gonna be a little longer of a story so sit back, relax, and grab some popcorn. So over the summer was a time where I could relax and not have to worry about school or about anything really. Except for a few things in my family here and there. July went by like a breeze and not much happened. August is when things started going down. I felt very sad and disconnected from everything and everyone, including God. I felt like I was drowning. Part of the reason is because I love to help people and try to help everyone I possibly can. Although, as you can expect dealing with that much negativity isn’t easy whatsoever. There were some things that made it worse which I will get to later. I generally help people online. The reason being is because a lot of people come on the Internet to escape certain things in their life or because they are lonely. So I try to bring God to them and raise them up. When I couldn’t help people anymore because of the state I was in I sent all of them a message saying I was sorry that I wouldn’t really be able to message them anymore asking them how they are doing. As I needed to get my energy back. Little did I know what God had in store. One of my online friends who I talked to every now and then and who was one of the people I messaged helped me get through it. We would play together often usually in the nights. Lots of times we would Skype as well. This helped bring me out of my state and allow me to help people once again. Then my Dad’s birthday came up. Where most of my family was over. (I have a large family) and we got into some pretty touchy subjects. One of my sisters took me aside and told me much of the reason I am the way I am. Suddenly everything became clear and I understood so many things I didn’t understand about myself before. I learned what my spiritual gift was, partly because my sister had it. (She was the one who took me aside) My gift was the gift of discernment. Which is mentioned in the bible here:
1 Corinthians 12:10 to another the working of miracles, to another prophecy, to another the ability to distinguish between spirits, to other various kinds of tongues, to another the interpretation of tongues.
Hebrews 5:14 But solid food is for the mature, for those who have their powers of discernment trained by constant practice to distinguish good from evil.
I am still growing a lot in the gift but it explained a lot of what I was feeling and why. The gift of discernment allows the discernment between spirits of the flesh, Satan, or God. Discerning hidden things that say someone may be hiding. Also, it allows the person to relate very well to the person who they are talking to. Because they feel what that person is feeling often. The last one was the problem in where I was helping people. As I helped more and more people then I felt what they were feeling which means that their feelings kept building up on me and I didn’t know how to properly process it. One thing my sister told me helped. She said “After you are done helping someone pray and say, Father, these aren’t my feelings you died on the cross for them. I pray that you would remove them from me.” Which has helped greatly.
Some of the things that have been revealed to me the past two weeks have brought so much clarity. I often feel strongly against when people swear, crude joking, and the way many people dress. I have always felt these, but up until two weeks ago, I didn’t know why. I looked these things up in the Bible and I realized these feelings were from the holy spirit. How thankful I am that I didn’t become lukewarm to the feelings and accept them. The Bible verses for each separate things are as follows:
But now you must put them all away: anger, wrath, malice, slander, and obscene talk from your mouth.
And he called the people to him and said to them, “Hear and understand: it is not what goes into the mouth that defiles a person, but what comes out of the mouth; this defiles a person.
I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words, you will be condemned.
Let there be no filthiness nor foolish talk nor crude joking, which are out of place, but instead, let there be thanksgiving.
The way we dress (I believe this involves both guys and girls although, this is the bible verse)
1 Timothy 2:9-10
Likewise, also that women should adorn themselves in respectable apparel, with modesty and self-control, not with braided hair and gold or pearls or costly attire, but with what is proper for women who profess godliness—with good works.
Do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewal of your mind, that by testing you may discern what is the will of God, what is good and acceptable and perfect.
Now some of you may be thinking “These things don’t matter as much we should be dealing with drugs or porn or violence.” but I say all sins are equal in God’s site. Therefore shouldn’t we treat these things the same way that we treat drugs, porn, or violence? With 1 Timothy 2:9-10 you may be wondering “How do I know if I am dressing with modesty and self control?” well that’s where Romans 12:2 comes in. “that by testing you may discern what is the will of God” The Holy Spirit will tell you. You can also just stand in front of a mirror and ask yourself “Is this how I would want to present myself to God if he came in here? Would I want him to see me like this?” then that may help you decide as well.
Hope this gave you something to think about, and hopefully I didn’t offend you in anyway. The Holy Spirit has been telling me to write this.
“Run wild, live free, love strong.” – For King and Country