The other day, I had been talking to someone who holds a very special place in my heart. I was kinda mad at myself, and I was just really struggling. As I was walking away from him, He says this while pointing to something I have been making, “Margaret, You have value, This right here is value.”. That hit me hard.
Value. Wow. That word is strong, for me at least. I had walked back to my seat after getting a much needed hug, and silently cried to myself. I have had people tell me that they are proud of me, and that they love me. But that I have value, never have I had that. I have always hated myself, thats harsh, I know. I just really never saw the positive things in myself. But once those three words, they changed everything for me. I cried, and just reflected. I have value, someone thats not my family, loves me. Like really loves me. Someone see me, not for my faults, but for me.
I have been told positive things by people, but I have always been that person who just smiles and says thank you. I thought if I just started to accept the positives from other people, that those positive words would become true. Funny thing is, it never happened. They never felt true. And lately, I have been really needing those things to be true. I am low. Im not overly happy and full. A lot has happened, school is crazy. I am drained, hold that, I was drained. The three words filled me up again.
I have always been one to give advice but never get any advice back. And sometimes it hurts because I need help, but none of my friends can see it.
But God sent me something. He sent me the three words that were said to me. He put the light back into me. He can see what is going on. He can see what you are doing every second of every day. How crazy is that? He can see everything. He can hear everything. Take a minute, let it soak in.
Before this summer, I always thought our God is a lot smaller then he really is. He is literally everywhere. Thats crazy. And He will give us everything the moment He knows we need it. He does so much for us that we don’t even see.
God works through us, and other people. And the three words said to me , You have value, He was there, He sent that. He sent me the hope, the light, the thing that made me snap back into reality. Everyday I am shocked by God. By the amount of love He gives us. How He creates community in small and large spaces. He is here, open your heart to hear Him.
You have value, everyone has value. Everyone has value in different ways, and your just gonna have to find it. God is here, talk to him. Make time for faith, for God. Make time, whenever you can, because He has all of the time in the world for you.
Please remember you are loved, valued, and cared about.
He will cover you with his feathers,
and under his wings you will find refudge;
His faithfulness will be your shield and apart.
You will not fear the terror of night,
nor the arrow that flies by day,
nor the pestilence that stalks in the darkness.
“because he loves me” says the Lord, “I will rescue him;
I will protect him for he acknowledges my name.
He will call on me, and I will wander to him;
I will be with him in trouble,
I will deliver him and honour him.
With long life I will satisfy him and show him my salvation.”
I always read these two verse’s when Im not doing so well. Open up to these and read, it can help.