I’ve been trying to write for a very long time. It seems that each time I come to write, I find that I don’t have any answers, any solutions for my troubled heart, or for my many questions so I give up.
I used to be able to start writing and solutions would come out of no where. But right now, I have so many questions that I just don’t know where to start.
Tonight, my heart is troubled. I am worrying about so many things, midterms, schoolwork, job, relationships and so much more. Thoughts constantly run through my mind that I just don’t want to be thinking. Worry makes me stressed, stressed makes me feel sick and the circle just doesn’t seem to be getting better. I take time to rest but never feel completely restored. The questions that I have for God right now seem to outweigh any answers that I can come up with.
But maybe having answers isn’t the point.
Tonight, I don’t have much to write, other than this:
Maybe, just maybe, the reason why I have so many questions isn’t to find answers, but to deepen my trust in the One who carries my troubled heart.
So, as I try to sleep tonight – and as you read this too – let’s remind ourselves that the God who we are searching for isn’t calling us into a blind faith that walks into the unknown – but instead calling us to walk with eyes open to His hand carrying our hearts through the places He knows we need to be, through the questions He knows we need to be digging into.
Do you have questions for God? Is your heart deeply troubled? Same. But I encourage you to trust. Maybe we don’t need answers, maybe we just need to deepen our trust through the unknown and walk farther into the one who is all knowing. At first, this article was titled: Unanswered. But now, it’s titled: Answered. Why? Because I guess we got our answer… God is calling me (and you) to just have faith. Thank’s God for being near to our weary hearts.
So, how would I define my faith right now? Trusting in God, who I can’t even begin to comprehend, but who I love anyways.
Trust God from the bottom of your heart;
don’t try to figure out everything on your own.
Listen for God’s voice in everything you do, everywhere you go;
He’s the one who will keep you on track. – Proverbs 3 MSG