Hey everyone. Im back, and hopefully will be more frequently. Before I begin this article I would like to give a little bit of information about myself.
Ever since I was young I have felt called into some sort of youth ministry work. I never really understood what that meant, and honestly I still don’t totally know that I do. I am a grade twelve student this year so the thought of applying for university has been one of the most uncomfortable and stressful situations of my life. I don’t know what to apply for because I don’t know what I wanna do. Yes I would like to minister to youth, and I want to change lives and inspire and influence teenagers, but how do I do that in a practical way. I know being a pastor isn’t the route for me. At least not the kind of pastor who goes up on a Sunday morning and preaches the bible. It’s an amazing job, but not for me. So then I thought maybe be a phycologist or a councillor. I could work with kids and youth and help them figure life out and through that I could minister to them. But again, not for me. I don’t know why exactly, I just knew I was called towards something else. I finally decided that maybe being a teacher is the route for me. At least for a few years. I could work directly with kids in the place that they spend the majority of their day at. I could teach bible, lead different groups/clubs and maybe even work a job like Shaun does.
I was FINALLY contempt. But, that didn’t last. I applied for university and unfortunately was not going to be accepted because my marks weren’t competitive enough. I felt so distraught. It felt like God just peaced on out of my life and was making me figure out this whole life thing by myself. I felt so alone, confused and beaten. Why would God give me this huge desire to work with the youth in our world and minister to them, but not help me figure out how to do it. I thought God wasn’t there for me at all.
With nothing else to do, I prayed. I asked God to give me a clear pathway in life. I asked some of my buddies to pray for me as well. I applied at a few more universities, and I then took a step back. I did all that I physically could, and it was time that I put all of my trust into God and let him do his thing.
Sure enough, God provided. Like he always does. I got a university acceptance letter, as well as a text message from a girl at school completely out of the blue. The next morning after I put all my heart and soul into God and prayed none stop, I woke up with a text message with a link to a podcast that talked about trusting in God and hearing from God. The podcast provided me with exactly the peace that I was looking for. Sure I don’t know what my life may look like, and sure I’m not entirely sure what I even want to do, but God is going to put me exactly where he wants me to be. You see, I was trying to figure out the whole thing by myself, and I never once actually sat back and let God talk and do his thing. God was always talking to me, and he was always trying to help, I just didn’t open up my ears to listen to him. Maybe those closed doors of not getting into my first university, or the nudges I felt that certain jobs weren’t for me was God guiding me along. I believe it totally was.
Guys I don’t know what my life is supposed to look like or what I’m supposed to do in life, but that is totally okay. God is in control. The one and only God who knows all knows me specifically and he’s guiding my life exactly where I’m supposed to be. I don’t need to worry what tomorrow will look like, and I don’t need to worry what my life will look like in ten years because GOD is in control. I just need to trust in him and allow him to speak into my life.
I know I am not the only one who has felt like this before in life and I know that I am not the only one who has struggled to hear from God. Guys there is going to be so many times where you’ll feel lost in life. It’s gonna feel like God has just got up and abandoned you, and you’re not gonna know what your next step is supposed to be. But remember. God will never fail, he will never run out, and he will never give up on you. He has you where he wants you, and he will lead you where he wants you to go. You just need to trust him that even in times of doubt he is doing something miraculous in your life. Have ears to listen and faith to trust him.
Just because you don’t always hear God doesn’t mean he isn’t there. Sometimes were just not listening close enough.
Matthew 6:34 – Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself.